How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, Running over the same old ground. What have you found? The same old fears. Wish you were here.
Why’d you call me today with nothing new to say? You pretend it’s just hello, but you know what it does to me to see your number on the phone.
Now tell me, what do you want? What do you want? What do you want from me? Are you tryin’ to bring back the tears or just the memories? You keep takin’ me back, takin’ me back where I’ve already been. When we hang up it’s almost like I’m losing you again. Can’t you see? So what do you want, what do you want from me? … What do you want me to say? That I’m content? That I’m on the fence? That I wish you would’ve stayed?
Oh baby what do you want, what do you want, what do you want from me? To come here and make love tonight cause you’re feelin’ lonely. You keep takin’ me back, takin’ me back where I’ve already been. When we wake up and say goodbye it’s like I’m losing you again. Can’t you see? So what do you want, what do you want from me? What do you want, what do you want from me?
For me, music has and always will be a big part of my life. I've played instruments since I was little. I've danced since I was little. I'm the girl who sings even when she doesn't sound good...in the car, at work, anywhere really. You can use it to convey lots of emotions. It can make you want to jump around and dance, sing, or celebrate. It can make a workout a whole lot easier. It can also make you want to cry, or at the same time comfort you. As I've said for before, sometimes it seems like a song is meant just for you.
On a recent episode of Glee, Rachel has a hard time writing a song, because she isn't able to reach down far enough into herself. Until she experiences true pain, she doesn't find the right lyrics and emotion to really get that good song. I think this is why I love music so much. Because it's real. Because it's people's real experiences and emotions. Whether happy or sad, fun or heartbreaking...a truly good and lasting song usually comes from a real place in the writer or singers heart, or whatever you want to call it.
I think this is also why on numerous occasions I turn to music when I'm having a hard time. Or possibly why I'll burst into tears during a song in the car during these times. Like recently during this song:
Lady Antebellum - Need You Now
Picture perfect memories Scattered all around the floor Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I Ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone And I need you now Said I wouldn't call But I've lost all control And I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now
I've always loved this song. But I think hearing a song at a certain point in your life has a different effect on you. Yet another reason I love music. It can change meanings at different times too. It can also bring back certain memories. I guess that can sometimes be bad.
Anyway, this song yet again describes exactly how I felt the other night. It's like all the hurt that I'm feeling, someone else already felt when they wrote this song. The line "I wonder if I ever cross your mind" will not stop going through my head...and I cannot sleep. Of course this relates a little bit to my post "say what you need to say". This all sounds very vague, I know, but I just don't want to throw the whole story out there. I just use this place to get my feelings out enough that I feel a little better. But I think almost everybody could relate to this lyric. Hasn't everybody wondered that at some point? It hurts and it's just slightly stressful.
If you hadn't noticed I've been having one of those "bad weeks". Lots of confusing stuff going on...I'm hoping things will get figured out soon, but until then I guess I will just continue to sing in the car at the stop of my lungs and have a good cry when I need it. After all, the artist wrote the song for other people to either enjoy or to sympathize with right? And since when does a good cry not just make you feel a little better every once in a while?
The other day I wrote a blog about Adele's song "Rolling in the Deep". I talked about how it's one of those songs that speaks to you. Sometimes it seems like a song was written just for you. Sometimes a song just means something to you at a certain time and you just need it. This weekend this was my song. I think it explains exactly what my heart is feeling. You know how sometimes you have the words, but you almost don't know how to say them...I feel like I knew what to say, but this just makes them sound so much better. I was out of town this weekend on a super fun trip, but at the same time I was having a slightly emotional time on the inside. Maybe Kenny just knew what I was feeling.
Somewhere With You - Kenny Chesney
If you're going out With someone new I'm going out With someone too
I won't feel sorry for me I'm getting drunk But I'd much rather be Somewhere with you
Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah Driving around on a Saturday night You made fun of me for singing my song Got a hotel room just to turn you on
You said pick me up at 3 a.m. You're fighting with your mom again And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go Somewhere with you, yeah
I won't sit Outside your house And wait for the lights To go out
Call up an ex To rescue me Climb in their bed when I'd much rather sleep Somewhere with you
Like we did on the beach last summer When the rain came down and we took cover Down in your car, out by the pier You laid me down, whispered in my ear
I hate my life, hold on to me Ah, if you ever decide to leave Then I'll go, I'll go, I'll go
I can go out every night of the week Can go home with anybody I meet But it's just a temporary high 'Cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you Somewhere with you
If you see me Out on the town And it looks like I'm burning it down
You won't ask And I won't say But in my heart I'm always Somewhere with you
Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah Driving around on a Saturday night You made fun of me for singing my song Got a hotel room just to turn you on
You said pick me up at 3 a.m. You're fighting with your mom again And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go
I can go out every night of the week Can go home with anybody I meet But it's just a temporary high 'Cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you Somewhere with you Somewhere with you I'm somewhere with you Somewhere with you Somewhere with you Somewhere with you
I'm obsessed with this song (well her whole album, as I've stated before) right now. It's one of those songs that kind of just speaks to you and just fits. You know how sometimes you just sort of latch onto a certain song for a while...I love this one. I belt it in the car. Yeah, I'm the girl who you see driving on the freeway just singing along and I don't care who stares at me. Sometimes I'm even crying. HA. But that's just me. It's one of those therapies that I talked about in my Taylor Swift post. I wish I had Adele's...(or Taylor's) voice.
Anyway, take a listen and I hope you enjoy as much as I do.
*I love this video too*
Adele - Rolling in the Deep
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,
Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your sheet bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,
The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,
The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,
We could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,
I heard that your settled down. That you found a girl and your married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend why are you so shy? It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited. But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded That for me it isn't over.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me I beg I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead yeah.
You'd know how the time flies. Only yesterday was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze. Bound by the surprise of our glory days.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it. I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded That for me it isn't over yet.
Nevermind I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me I beg I remember you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" yay.
Nothing compares no worries or cares. Regret's and mistakes they're memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Nevermind I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me I beg I remembered you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"
Nevermind I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me I beg I remembered you said:- "Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead" Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead yay yeh yeah
"Bad news comes, don't you worry even when it lands. Good news will work its way to all them plans.
Alright already we'll all float on. Alright don't worry even if things end up a bit too heavy. We'll all float on...alright. Already we'll all float on."
All I know is that you're so nice You're the nicest thing I've seen I wish that we could give it a go See if we could be something
I wish I was your favourite girl I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style
I wish you couldn't figure me out But you always wanna know what I was about I wish you'd hold my hand When I was upset I wish you'd never forget The look on my face when we first met
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot That you loved secretly 'Cause it was on a hidden bit That nobody else could see Basically, I wish that you loved me I wish that you needed me I wish that you knew when I said two sugars, Actually I meant three
I wish that without me your heart would break I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake I wish that without me you couldn't eat I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep
Look, all I know is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen And I wish that we could see if we could be something Yeah I wish that we could see if we could be something
- Kate Nash
Sunday, February 20, 2011
"So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe"
She'd trade Colorado if he'd take her with him, Closes the door before the winter lets the cold in, And wonders if her love is strong enough to make him stay, She's answered by the tail lights Shining through the window pane
He said I wanna see you again But I'm stuck in colder weather Maybe tomorrow will be better Can I call you then She said you're ramblin' You ain't ever gonna change You gotta gypsy soul to blame And you were born for leavin'
At a truck stop diner just outside of Lincoln, The night is black as the coffee he was drinkin', And in the waitress' eyes he sees the same 'ol light shinin', He thinks of Colorado And the girl he left behind
He said I wanna see you again But I'm stuck in colder weather Maybe tomorrow will be better Can I call you then She said you're ramblin' You ain't ever gonna change Got a gypsy soul to blame And you were born for leavin'(born for leavin')
Well it's a winding road When your in the lost and found You're a lover I'm a runner We go 'round 'n 'round And I love you but I leave you I don't want you but I need you You know it's you who calls me back here
Oh I wanna see you again But I'm stuck in colder weather Maybe tomorrow will be better Can I call you then Cause I'm a ramblin' man I ain't ever gonna change I gotta gypsy soul And I was born for leavin' (born for leavin')
And when I close my eyes I see you No matter where I am I can smell your perfume through these whispering pines I'm with your ghost again It's a shame about the weather I know soon we'll be together And I can't wait till then I can't wait till then
Do you ever have those days or couple of days when everything just feels wrong? Everything just goes wrong...
All I feel like doing is laying in bed and watching movies. It's one of those times that I wish I was angry and I wanted to go to the gym and run, but I just don't really feel like doing anything. I don't feel like going into the details right now, but it just has not been a good past couple of days.
and then to top it off you go to get your favorite snack for lunch and they tell you they don't even sell tamales anymore...and then it starts snowing on the way home and you find out that there is supposed to be a storm for the next few days...it's just icing on the cake. Those things don't matter. But it would have been nice to have that tamale for lunch.
Wreck of the Day - Anna Nalick
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cause love doesn't hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
When all my resistance will never be distance enough
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
